If I’m being honest…

If I’m being honest…

If I’m being honest… It hurts that you’re not here.

If I’m being honest… Seeing you with them makes a little piece inside of me die.

If I’m being honest… Knowing that I was so expendable, hurts a little more than a lot.

If I’m being honest… The sounds I hear at night are my own sobs, muffled under pain.

If I’m being honest… Everyone else says that I should forget about you,  and I wish it were that easy.

If I’m being honest… Knowing that you know how to hurt me, scares me more than even my deepest fear.

If I’m being honest… I’m scared that I was never, and will never be, good enough to make you care.

If I’m being honest… It scares me that I care that I was never and will never be enough.

If I’m being honest… Deep inside I hope you hurt as much as I do. 

If I’m being honest… I wish I could be honest with you.

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