When I started this blog, I promised to be authentic. That meant the good, the bad, and the ugly. Well, tonight you are getting it… the ugly that is.
As my title states, sometimes parenting sucks. Sometimes, it’s messy and complicated, and you end the day feeling more like a mental patient than a parent. I have days, like today, that end in tears. Days that make me feel like every decision, every word, every moment has been a complete and utter failure.
Today was one of those days. Yesterday was one of those days. In fact, the last week has been day after day of those kind of days. My children have been difficult, to put it nicely, and I have just not been feeling this whole parenting thing. In fact, tonight I told my husband, “I AM DONE! I can’t do this anymore! I am ready to leave the house and never come back!”
Harsh words, I know, but some days I honestly feel that way (at least staying gone for a day or two… not forever). I see people with big families and my first thought is never “Why would you want so many children?” It’s always, “How does that mom keep her sanity? I only have two and I am going crazy some days!”
I like to think that my children just get bored because they are so smart, and they need more to keep them entertained. My children honestly aren’t content to sit day in and day out watching television… and I don’t want them to. I suppose my days would be easier if I allowed the television to baby-sit for me… but, I just can’t do that all day. I’m not saying I don’t ever do it, because I totally do… just not all day every day. However, I think the real reason my children fight is because I have a 10 year old boy starting to get all those stupid hormones, and a diva little 6 year old girl.
Because of these differences my children are at odds a good majority of the time. Some days (few and far between, and only for a short time when it happens) my children are the best of friends, they play nicely and don’t fight. Then other days, I truthfully wonder what weird intergalactic creature has inhabited my beautiful, nice children.
I love my children dearly, but some days I want a serious vacation from being a mommy.
How many of my mommy (or daddy) friends out there feel me?